Sunday 28th March 2021 7-8pm
An opportunity to come together on ZOOM to enjoy the Full Super Moon in Libra with Distant Healing Guided Meditation Bliss
LIVE ONLINE AND FREE!
If you missed our last New Moon healing meditation on 11/2/21,
you can listen again on YouTube here.
Join Annabel Fox and I for a beautiful Full Moon distant healing guided meditation to bring healing at this time as we move through yet more intense and profound planetary energy around the globe.
We will send distant healing and it will be received by you wherever you are, the session will be available to watch anytime and the healing intention will reach you whenever you watch.
Since starting these online healings last April, I have had so many wonderful stories of how they have helped you and as each one is recorded and you can watch again anytime, I know many of you watch over and over again when one has resonated with you deeply.
The meditations are channeled so I never know until shortly before, where our journey will take us, but the theme is always around deep, soul healing, pure awareness, consciousness and awakening.
These sessions are entirely free and all are welcome.
Feel free to join my Healing Group the Angelic Light Daily Distant Healing group, your name is then added to my healing list. But joining me for these healing meditations will mean the healing will reach you.
Feel free to get in touch to request specific healing or to ask for it to reach friends and family.
What to expect during this healing guided meditation
The meditation will involve a short relaxation and pranayama breath work, guided meditation and then you can sit or lie and receive the healing vibes.
Please note the crystal bowl doesn’t come through well on zoom so sadly I won’t be playing it during the meditation.
But Zoom does mean I am easy and simple to find online and I can see and interact with you more easily and send you healing as I will know who is there! So thats worth the change to zoom from facebook live.
Do let me know your thoughts, I want this to work for you!
I hope you enjoy, please share with friends xxx
Some of what others have said after joining us for a healing guided meditation
“Wow saira-that hit me straight away, I could feel my throat tighten and my tears building. I needed to hear that, I needed to feel that-I felt like I was really stretching out for it. This for me is one of your absolute best and I think it will be the place I keep going back too. Thank you for such amazing words saira and a place I need to be now showing me faith! I feel so emotional xxx” Emma, March 2021
“Wow! So powerful. Can’t remember the last time I sobbed so much. A much needed release indeed. Thank you for sharing this xx” Rob, March 2021
“Hi. I just wanted to thank you for your recent angelic meditation recording. I saved it a while ago but only just had some quiet time today to listen to it. It was absolutely beautiful and even though I didn’t realise it before, I needed it so badly. I had tears rolling down my cheeks during it. Thank you so much” Anon March 2021
“I just wanted to thank you and Annabelle for the healing last night. I have been in pain for a few days now. After the meditation, which I actually slept through, my pains have all disappeared! See you again soon! xxx” K, February 2021
Zoom link to join this Full Moon healing guided meditation
Saira Francis is inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting.
Topic: Full Moon Distant Healing
Time: Mar 28, 2021 07:00 PM London
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Meeting ID: 865 5019 7828
I am so excited to be back to teaching Reiki Healing Workshops in Dorset after a long 5 year break! I stopped teaching back in 2015 as I just felt so busy running retreats that I didn’t feel I had the energy to offer enough to the Reiki teaching. One of my students who trained with me then, asked me about a year ago if I would teach her the next level Reiki II, I said absolutely no! “I’m too busy and its been too long, I just can’t fit it in anywhere” I said, over and over again. But Jessie wore me down and flattered me with lovely compliments until I said ok just this once!
We booked a date in for January 2020 and I said a prayer to the universe. “If I am meant to start teaching again, then send me the students and I promise I will take it seriously and begin to share the healing energy whole heartedly once more”, of course what happened?! January was full with the maximum I would teach at the moment, 4 lovely students very keen to take their Reiki journeys further. Since then I have been adding in and filling up dates over the coming months.
So that is the story of how I am back to teaching, I surrender to whatever I am meant to be offering others, in full and humble service to the healing Light and wherever it takes me, always listening to guidance and trusting that I am being shown where and how I can serve best.
Enough about me!
I would love to share the wonder and excitement of finding Reiki Healing and bringing it into your life, with you. I would also be honoured if you chose to begin or extend your Reiki journey with me. I offer Reiki Healing workshops in Dorset, in just one full day, its a long day with lots to pack in but its works for anyone who like me, hasn’t got a lot of time and as all courses are on Wednesdays it works well for those of you who need to keep your weekends preciously free.
All Reiki Healing Workshops in Dorset are based at my home in Milton Abbas DT11 0BE for a very limited number of students.
REIKI LEVEL I £135
On the Reiki I course we will cover the history of Reiki, what the energy is and its many creative uses, ethics and practice, self healing, the reiki principles, self treatment, treating family and friends and all about the 21 day cleansing process which occurs after the course. We will do lots of meditation, working on forgiveness and release and clearing blocks so that you can become a purer channel for this sacred energy.
After this first workshop you will be able to practise on friend and family, not all Reiki teachers offer this on the first course but I find its really important to leave on after this first day feeling confident enough to get started, after all that is what Reiki is all about, sharing!
2021 Course dates:
Wednesday 19th May 2021 – Fully booked
Wednesday 16th June 2021 – 2 spaces left
Wednesday 8th September 2021 – 4 spaces
REIKI LEVEL II £150
On Reiki Level II we will begin connecting deeply to the angels and our guides to open up and begin to channel this sacred energy and learning the reiki symbols. We will work to cut the negative ties with the past so you are a clearer channel for the Reiki energy, we will learn how to send distant healing using the symbols and how to send healing energy to the Earth.
After this workshop you will be able to freely practise reiki on others as a practitioner, getting insurance etc, once you have completed the 21 day cleansing process that occurs after this workshop.
2021 Course dates:
Wednesday 26th May 2021 – 3 spaces left
Wednesday 23rd June 2021 – 3 spaces left
Wednesday 22nd September – 4 spaces
REIKI LEVEL III (Master Teacher Level) £250
Full details about what this course involves coming soon
2021 Course dates:
Wednesday 7th July 2021 – 1 space
Wednesday 20th October 2021 – 4 spaces
All workshops take place at my home West Luccombe Cottage, DT11 0BE in Milton Abbas. We are blessed to live in a very tranquil and beautiful spot away from traffic and noise. I do have cats and a small dog so please let me know in advance if either are a problem for you (if you have allergies etc)
We will spend the day together in my home, cosy and comfortable. Bring a packed lunch and I will provide vegan cakes and lots of tea! Wear comfortable clothes and be prepared to switch off the phone and only check it at lunchtime if possible. The day is very busy but also fun and relaxed, be prepared to possibly over run a few minutes and try to ensure that you have nothing much to do that evening, if possible the next day too! Its normal to feel tired after a Reiki workshop as you assimilate all the lovely energy so try to plan as best you can, as a Mum of 3 I know how hard this can be though!
How to book!
Wonderful, you’ve decided to book a Reiki Course with me, amazing!! So now you just need to confirm your space and place a deposit to be sure of your spot. I am more than happy to accept payment in whichever form suits you best, cash, debit or credit card or BACS. I ask for a 50% deposit to book and then the remainder can be paid on the day or whenever suits you best.
You can drop cash to my home address, I can send you a link for online card payments or you can BACS to Mellulah 82611963 51-81-01. If you prefer to pay in instalments that is fine, take all the time you need.
Sometimes we decide to take a Long Way Round
I’d love to start this third part of this insight into my spiritual journey, with something about how as I awakened, life just became a fairytale overnight and I never looked back. I’ve read a lot of books where that happens to people, they become healed, find themselves, start again and life is all great.
That isn’t what happened to me, my life took a much longer way around to come to where I am today. There was no sudden healing or magic wand that made it all ok, but I am so grateful for every step, perhaps I could have sped things up by learning quicker or perhaps my life unfolded exactly as it should have, teaching me more than an easy ride might have.
How much of what we live through in our lives, is an unravelling of Karma? Do we simply have to go through everything we are here to find, as a way of healing and evolving? Is life one long healing process, perhaps it isn’t about having a goal to become enlightened and find peace, but about all the releasing and letting go that we do along the way?
I have a lot of Karma it seems! I’m sure many of us would say the same. I’m no Louise Hay or Gabbie Bernstein, I did not wake up one day and find my life healed and I would never pretend that was the case. I feel its really important to remember that we all have to go through life, the way we are destined to. We made a soul contract before we come into each life and we have to go through the experiences in order to evolve and to heal. There is no point in being a victim and saying its not fair! Sometimes it isn’t, but we must accept our journey and try to enjoy the process of unraveling our tight ball of karmic thread, that we carry with us as we reincarnate. We can’t hide from the process, well we could try, perhaps staying in bed forever might be a good way out, but we’d only have to do it all again next time.
From 2004 until 2017, I lived alone and brought up my three children. My two girls had the same father from my first marriage and my son, had a father from a relationship I had about a year after my divorce that did not survive, despite all our trying.
From 2004 to 2011 we moved house four times, we had no money, we were days away from council temporary accommodation on two occasions and throughout these years, until around 2015, I continued to have to deal with my highly abusive ex-husband threats and court proceedings. Eventually we found calmer waters and never once in all this time did my angels and guides leave my side.
As we moved each time, we got further out into the Dorset countryside. I was guided by dreams and messages to know if we needed to make a step. From the agent repeating the same words to describe a gorgeous cottage in Happy Bottom, with the words used by a lady who read my tea-leaves in 1990, to a lucid dream during a healing session where I saw a long cream cottage full of happy children on a hill, that brought me to Luccombe Farm where we remain today. Both were moves that meant a brave leap, a move to an area and new schools for the children, new friends and moving further into the rural landscape, I had the resources I needed from spirit to support me in knowing it was the right move and thankfully each time we were on the verge of homelessness, fate stepped in and showed us the way.
The first courageous move to what I now call, our healing house, in Happy Bottom nr Wimborne in 2006, gave me the space I needed to start to heal. I became quite reclusive, focused on the children, gave up my work in fashion and started my re-training in healing and therapies. As I worked more with Reiki healing energy and then with holistic therapies, the connection I felt with spirit intensified.
I started to remember past lives, having visions of flying over flooded Atlantis in a Vimana, an ancient aircraft that used free energy, recorded in texts from over 4000 years ago. I saw myself in Ancient Egyptian temples, working with sacred oils, sound and massage to help people move through the karmic lessons with more ease and gain insight into the mysteries of life and the heavens.
It was here in my healing house that I first met the Earth Priests, they held my hand tightly as I had to let go of the cottage in the woods and move on. They told me that even though the next move seemed sad, there was an adventure to be had there and that my connection with the Earth Energies was going to begin and intensify.
Our next home in Spetisbury lasted for just over three years, from October 2007 to January 2011 I have happy memories of this time. We made lots of new friends, I was qualified as a therapist and started seeing clients from home, the children were really happy at school and although I was still a single parent with the same challenges as before, life started to feel like a spiritual exploration every day.
Earth Energy & Connection
I began to feel very drawn to the earth and nature in the area, I dreamt of Druids and pagans, ancient ceremonies and sacred sites. My quest and thirst for knowledge drew me to read and search the web, fascinated by the areas leylines and stone circles, the rings at Spetisbury, Badbury, Maiden Castle and Hambeldon Hill. I spent hours and hours in churches, feeling the energy strongly and finding the silence and sacred space very healing. I’d sit in Tarrant Crawford church all afternoon and as my children were still then seeing their fathers, or my parents supported me with helping me find a balance and time to myself, I had a double life of busy Mum and then complete freedom, almost every other weekend.
By this time I was regularly seeing Denise Brown in Wells, Somerset and working with Angel Healing, training as a Archangel Healer, I had delicious weekends spent with her and the energies and I was literally spinning with spiritual awakening and rememberings, I could write a book about all the guidance and wisdom that was coming to me in those years!
I went through most of this alone, with just one or two friends that I could share with. Now my life is full of friends and groups where I can be me, without fear of ridicule or being labelled a crazy. The feeling of being different and alone then, was very strong. The isolation was intense at times. I know this can be hard for a lot of people, as we all begin to collectively awaken, there are more ways to reach out. Joining a yoga or meditation class, a women’s circle or going on a retreat, these are ways we can begin to connect with like minded souls, but the isolation that can come from beginning to remember, in a world that has forgotten, can be agonising at times. Thank goodness there are now so many more of us!
2008 was a year of incredible experiences and karmic connections. I dreamt of people who then found their way into my life, sometimes I literally threw myself into theirs when I realised the psychic connection! Looking back, I was so excited and this was all so new, I was not practising surrender and going with the flow, which is now my default, I was jumping around like a child in a sweet shop, grabbing at everything!
One of these connections was with a man who led me closer to understanding more about Earth Energy, what the ancient people of England and the world were doing to harness this energy and why our landscape is so abundant with signs of their deep earth connection. How lost our Earth religions became after the Roman invasion and after the witch hunts of the 12th and 13th centuries. I learnt how much of what is written in our history books about human evolution is nonsense that dumbs us down. Humans have been on this planet far longer than we are taught in school, there is so much evidence of that. We have had contact with other planets, the Dogons in Africa and the Egyptians, the Lemurians, Atlantians, Sumerians and Mayans, ancient civilisations that had wisdom we are only just beginning to attempt to understand.
During this year I went to a Crop Circle Conference, a tour of Ancient Dorsets Sacred Sites, a travelled to holy wells, stone circles, churches and barrows all over the South West from Cornwall to Cambridge. I dowsed for Earth Energy and dreamt of places I felt compelled to visit and sense for myself.
By late 2008 I was in Arizona, touring sacred sites there in Sedona and around. It was at Palatki, (Palatkwapi) a ancient site, full of pictographs and petroglyphs dating back at least 3-6000 years that my Earth Priests introduced themselves to me properly. We were part of a small group tour of the site and I held back in a small cave, it was very dark and I could hear the group moving on outside. As I stood in the corner of the cave I saw three, crystalline, Light filled beings appear before me. They told me it was time for them to come and that they would stay with me now. They gave me there names, Erinkudo, Erinyami and Donashtiyamo.
These beings have never left me and I now channel them regularly and share with you all, they are with me when I work with the healing energy and over the past few months they now show themselves more clearly to me. Three tall, dark men, dressed in rich, colourful embellished robes of white, red, yellow, orange and black. One has a long black beard, tied with thread just under his chin to make the hair long like a tail down his neck.
These Light beings now radiate their Light to Earth from the Pleiades and this is the Star System I have been told I and so many of us are from. Brought here now at this time to remember and to help others remember all that has been forgotten, as our Earth comes out of its 3D slumber into a high vibrational 5D awakening.
They stand with me when I do a healing, one at the end of the couch, one each side, holding hands and then with me to make a diamond shape around the person on the bed. For years now I have felt them stood behind me, with their hands placed around my head and temples, sharing the Light with me, I feel them now as I write. It is rare for a day to go by without me feeling them there. Sometimes its very intense, like recently when I was working on a client with a neurological disease, they pushed into my third eye centre so hard it felt like the energy was drilling into my head, telling me to sit and channel that energy through until the pressure on my forehead eased. It went on for at least 20 minutes, like nothing I’ve felt before.
Shortly after the experience in the cave, I have a photo of me taken standing outside a diner, not far from the Grand Canyon in Nevada, with a huge orb of Light around my head, it was giant! And there they have remained to this day.
Past Life Memories
From that trip in 2008 until our move to Luccombe Farm in early 2011, life continued to unfold, like a spiritual adventure.
My memories of past lives intensified. (I must stress that all my past life memories came directly from my own dreams, meditations and visions. I decided not to put my trust in anyone else telling me what my past lives had been. I fear that someone else, might add their own energy to mine, this made me want to be very clear about only taking what came as truth, if it came directly to me from source):
I was cruelly separated from a partner in a life as a Bogomil, a religious sect who with many others, fled Eastern Europe and joined the Cathars in France. I had never heard of the Bogomils, who has?! I loved how so much of what was shown to me in dreams and visions, I discovered more about, through google! The wonders of spiritual wisdom using modern tech to help us learn.
The vision of being publicly tortured and killed in a life as an Aztec, stayed with me for a long time and disturbed me greatly. I worked with a Shaman, whilst in India earlier this year, to help me release the continuing pain and fear, associated with that memory.
In 2009, as I remembered a life during WWII in Warsaw, being rounded up in a park, as a mother with my children, my body also showed the signs of this, as my chest developed three unexplained dark patches. I believe they were gun shot wounds, after months of visions and memories that were very traumatic and lots of angelic healing with Denise Brown, the scars left my body and never returned.
There were beautiful memories too. Working as a healer and with herbs around the time of Jesus that led me to search and study his life and the Gnostic teachings. Reading the alternative history of Jesus as a yogi, a Lama and how it is very unlikely that he died but that he lived on, perhaps to travel to France and England before returning to Kashmir and being buried there. Was it possible that the Bogomils, Cathars and the Templars were protecting evidence of this heretical theory and could that be partly why they were so persecuted and eventually wiped out by the Catholic Inquisition? Did the European witch hunts, ensure that we have no proof that Christianity was once warped from its pure, beautiful beginnings, into a controlling system that has killed off not only many people but also our connection with the earth and our true nature so readily over the past 2000 years? Are many of us here now, returning to Earth as this time to help us rediscover this forgotten energy and connection? I am more sure of it than ever the past few months, that is for certain.
I’ll end this part of the story with a dream that woke me up in the middle of the night with a name. ‘Mellulah’! I wrote the name down and as always the next day I excitedly googled it. Maa-lou-la an ancient town in Syria, 50 kms from Damakas and the only place in the world where they still speak Aramaic, the language of Jesus. Mellulah means ‘entrance’ and it is thought that this sacred place was the entrance to the Garden of Eden. Almost of sigh of understanding came to me then and this became the name of my therapy business.
I’ve since unravelled more and the Earth Priests have told me that Maaloula is where they originated from, in their lives on Earth during the Sumerian period. This also perhaps explains why, aged 11 yrs old I started spelling my name, Saira, the Arabic way of spelling that also means ‘Bird’ or ‘free soul’. The gathering of memories is never ending, only last year I was introduced by a Sufi teacher, to the Aramaic Lords Prayer, which can still send me in to floods of healing tears, as I listen to it.
I have now shared with you up until 2010. I was on the cusp of heading into a new life that I could not yet see. I had been given a vision in November 2010, showing me that there was love and happiness for me in the future, in a long, cream cottage with a road sloping down to it from a hill behind and water in front of it, perhaps a river, a stream or maybe a pond?
The journey into my own personal Surrender Experiment was soon to begin. A final release from the abusive cuffs, that chained me to my first marriage and the coming together of years of study and insight. Seeing beyond the illusion that is our reality, life began to take a shape that would continue to feel, like one long adventurous journey of discovery.
Life has been full of hope, despite many challenges with my family, some of which I shared in a previous blog from 2014/15 OmShantiMellulahOm, I have always known I am being Divinely Guided, I am where I am meant to be, doing what I am meant to be doing and learning always. Life continues to be a spiritual school and to this day, this moment, I have so much to try to understand and figure out about myself. But my strength and determination to keep evolving does not wain, even if I feel I am taking, A Long Way Round.
Thank you for continuing to read my story, Part 4 coming soon xx
What is a Spiritual Awakening?
A spiritual awakening can be gentle or fierce, sudden or slow burning, its different for everyone and there aren’t any rules on how it should or could happen to you.
An awakening is a releasing of the ego, a time in someones life, when their ego begins to weaken and they start to connect with something higher, the soul, the spirit, the higher self. A person begins to see the world through new eyes, belief systems are questioned, depending on the culture lived in, perhaps religious dogma will be challenged, or consumerism, capitalism, materialism, no longer make sense.
On a personal level, an awakening can create more awareness of how we function in life, our emotional triggers and patterns, how we treat others and how we allow others to treat us. Old emotions can be healed as we realise the ego is holding onto old grudges, resentments, judgements and past injustices. The need to be right and to be the best, to win, to have status, money, power, control, this begins to dissipate as an awakened being sees the truth, that love, compassion, kindness are important more than anything and a relationship with the divine consciousness is vital, as that divine love melts away pain and the suffering of the ego.
Then I woke up!
In 1998, whilst pregnant with my first daughter Betsy, I began to have experiences that I could not deny. Very real and obvious visions, dreams, messages and endless coincidences and synced events that I could not ignore what was happening.
The first visions I had were so simple, I would close my eyes perhaps to take a nap or meditate and I would see shapes, silhouettes of very random items that I would then see later that day. Once, there was a shape of a toy that a visiting family brought with them later that afternoon, the face of a person I would then bump into in the supermarket a few hours later, letters with company logos on them that would then arrive in the post. That ‘deja vu’ feeling was heightened and I’d realise an event that was happening during the day, I’d dreamt the night before. It was gentle, nothing crazy or mind-blowing at first, just simple nudges that let me know something was happening.
I had a dream one night when I was in the last few months of pregnancy that I have never forgotten and I’m reminded of frequently. In this inspiring dream, a friend of mine Nick Cadman, pointed to a beautiful, coloured bird and said “See that bird, how can you not believe that there is a God when you look at a stunning creature like that?”. I awoke the next morning in my ground floor South London flat and sat on the fence outside my kitchen window, was a Jay, all gorgeous and blue feathered, I stood there, huge belly and a cup of tea in my hand, absolutely stunned.
Over the past 22 years I have seen Jay’s frequently, early on after the dream I would see them the day before something significant would happen to me, not always positive events, it felt as though the Jay was a messenger from the Gods, letting me know they were there, not to worry, I was safe, protected and to watch out.
The last time I saw a Jay was on the 31st October 2018, in a clients garden where I was giving her a massage, the day before I made the decision to give up alcohol, the most incredible, fearless year of my whole life, was to follow.
In the years that followed my first spiritual experiences, they came often. I had been suffering with anxiety for many years and after the birth of Betsy, living in London and in an unhappy marriage, panic attacks were becoming common and debilitating. In 1999, my mother-in-law at the time, gave me a cassette of what I would now call ‘Yoga Nidra Meditation’. It was incredible, she had been using it to help with some tension, but for me it was literally mind blowing!
I would put the cassette on whilst Betsy was having her afternoon nap and I began to feel transported to another dimension entirely. It was very scary at first but also so intriguing and impossible not to want to try again and again. I would feel lifted out of my body, I would see and hear all kinds of people, faces, places, I had no idea what was happening, I was awake and really aware, not asleep, I now know what I was experiencing is called Lucid Dreaming.
Some of the experiences were messages for me, I remember very clearly being told ‘We are very pleased with you’, I will never forget that it was amazing. I would see a ring of peoples faces looking down on me, like a circle of angels all looking in to see how I was doing. Then it felt as though I was being educated by my angels. They would show or tell me things and I had a sense that I was meant to then begin to research that further online, find books, or watch films. This started with a clear vision of a DNA Spiral, that led me to one of the first books that really showed me something I’d never known of before, ‘DNA and the Cosmic Serpent’ by Jeremy Narby, all about Shamanic Amazonian Tribes and the mind altering plant Ayahuasca.
I was shown Fractals that led me to begin to explore the Crop Circle phenomenon in the Uk, particularly the Julia Set Crop Circle at Stonehenge of 1996 that I found quite astonishing in its beauty. This fascination went on for many years and I still love to look at the circles as they told me just looking at that them was helping us to open up our DNA codes, a little like looking at a Mandala.
I was shown incredible visions, like blueprints for what looked like cars and machinery, co-ordinates for parts of the world I had never been to, I seemed to be surfing some kind of cosmic web, past and future, other dimensions all coming together at once, as I was in deep meditation. I had a conversation with a young man in the army who had had a motorbike accident, but had not yet realised he had passed away, he was fine and it didn’t feel strange, he then said goodbye and went to the Light. I saw disasters, rubble, brief visions of destruction, but nothing ever scared me, it was like I was watching a movie but completely detached from it. These are just a few of the visions I had, it was constant and daily, like another world.
The only time I would come back feeling unsettled would be when I would sometimes feel knocked, bumped, prodded or if my name was called very loudly. All of these happened sometimes, once a bird flew into my face, I’d wake up with a jolt, often coughing, it was like I was being shaken spiritually to wake up not only back into my reality, but also more deeply to wake up to my soul.
Looking back its wonderful to remember these experiences from over 20 years ago. All of this was happening to me, over a period of a few years, in our flat in East Dulwich, often with Betsy curled up next to me having her long afternoon naps. Life was very hard then, my mental health was at a terrible low, I was very unhappy and struggling. I had no one to share any of these experiences with at all, I mentioned something to my then husband a few times and he told me I was obviously even more crazy than he had thought. I kept quiet and never once spoke a word to my friends, who I can’t imagine would have understood, or I just wasn’t prepared to take the chance and be further ridiculed.
My children have always been the ones to keep me grounded and sane. I often wonder how much of what was happening to me, was also happening to Betsy, my gorgeous, cheeky little girl, who would often lie next to me. I’ve been told since, when I later met Wren Murray, that Betsy was bringing a lot of this energy in for me.
During my second pregnancy with little Mimi, I would talk to her, she was an old lady and the soul that was going to come and be my baby. I didn’t realise that until I was going into labour in the early hours and I saw this old lady lying in a bed with her husband. A voice said ‘she’s ready to come’, and another said ‘but I’m still here’, it was as though Mimi was in a transitional space between one life and another, four hours later she was born and has brought me nothing but joy for the past 17 years.
Finally, after seven years of awful marriage it ended, January 2004. By September of the same year, I was starting to see my angels, a giant blue orb of Light. Seeing this, really scared me at first and sent me into complete melt down, but through the incredible support of my loving mother Pat, who helped me recalibrate, ground back down and then found me my first Reiki teacher, I settled into this new being as though life had always brought such gifts to my door. I honestly believe my angels were waiting for my husband to get out the picture, so they could really start to work with me, they knew I would never be fully able to embrace them so long as he was in the way.
I don’t know why I had the experiences I did early on, or why it took so many years for me to begin to understand what I was perhaps meant to be doing here to help others. But I am so grateful for what happened to me then. I feel that a lot of my experience was around the time that the energy on the planet was shifting rapidly, a lot of people, like me, were waking up.
A lot of us had been through the ‘rave’ years of the late 80s and early 90s, a lost youth culture trying to make sense of a lost world. Looking for our tribes and turning to drugs to replicate almost exactly what I now feel, when my angels bring me beautiful healing. A little like the hippies of the 60s, we were that next generation looking for something other than what life offered. It does not surprise me that the feeling of ecstasy we all felt whilst dancing in fields at parties back then, is so incredibly similar and loved filled as a spiritual experience. I love that so many seekers I have met a long the way, were also in those fields searching for their missing parts, I love that so many of us did find those parts eventually, our souls and now we are using everything we learnt and the struggles we had, to help others to heal. Beautiful.
The next chapter of my spiritual journey took me on the most incredible ride. A single mum with three beautiful children, Lenny arrived in 2005 and I lived alone with them all until 2017. The visions and guidance began to consolidate, I listened more, followed the steps I was being asked to tread, I found God, a Divine connection that changed me so much I wonder if people I knew back in the late 90s wonder what on earth happened! This crazy, party, wild child, found herself, thank goodness xx
How could I ever have known, listening to that old cassette tape, exhausted, anxious, self-destructive and in a terrible state, that life was going to be come one big, long, magical adventure.
Part 3 coming soon, thank you so much for taking the time to read my story so far. Love Saira xxx
A Spiritual Adventure!
Outing myself and my Spirit Guides!
Many of you will have known me for many years for my yoga teaching and retreats, some will have come to me for therapies and healing in the past, but I haven’t always been quite so open about my true spiritual connection. Recently, events around the world have led me to feel that I need to be more honest, open, share my truth and the channeled messages and meditations, the healing that comes to me and pass it onto you all, if you would like it.
This is me, outing myself to you whether you know me or not, as a totally cosmic out there lady!
How it all started
I first started channelling through spirit guides in 1998, whilst pregnant with my first daughter Betsy, it came out of nowhere and suddenly my inner world transformed as I began a tentative communication with something I knew little of, and very rarely spoke of to anyone for many many years. It was quite isolating and if I’m honest, yes, at times I thought I had gone completely crazy! In 2004 after the birth of my second daughter Mimi and shortly before becoming pregnant with my third little cosmic bundle, Lenny, I started to also see Angels, or as I prefer to call them, Lightbeings.
The first Lightbeing I ever had the privilege to see, was a huge blue orb. It was at least 1.5m in diameter and the light shining from it radiated out in rays, it hovered in the air for a few incredible moments, right between Betsy (then 4 years old) and I, as I left her room after saying goodnight. I was in complete shock after witnessing this at first, it took me many weeks to fully recover from what I had witnessed and Betsy slept in my bed for a while too!
I am completely convinced that my children bring a lot of the energy I feel to me, the fact it all started during my first pregnancy and that all my children, now aged 14,17 & 21 are very connected to the energy themselves, I think my children helped me to awaken.
Once the shock had subsided, life transformed. I was introduced to a beautiful local woman named Wren Murray. Wren worked with powerful healing energy, Shamanic work and mediumship. She came to see me at home and told me I had a gift as a healer, she showed me how to work with the energy and that the Lightbeings were coming to me now, because they had been trying to connect with me for years, but I’d not really been listening. They’d tried many, soft, gentle methods to get me to accept and work with them, but they’d tired of the gentle approach and so had come to me in a way that was impossible to ignore and that would set me on the right path after too many years of distractions.
How do I see and feel my Spirit Guides
I see my spirit guides as Light, sometimes large or sometimes tiny blue orbs, white crystalline light or swirling lights that spiral like DNA in the air. I feel it too, I walk around most days with a pressure around my temples, it gets stronger when my guides want me to listen more intently, or I’ll hear a high pitched sound or feel a lightness on my cheek that just reminds me to stop, to tune in and to hear deeply. When I’m working, either remotely or with someone in the room with me, it can get so strong its really intense around my head. I think of it sometimes like spirit is holding me as if they are giving me the healing energy so I can pass it on. Imagine someone stood behind you with their hands around the sides of your head, that is what I feel most of the time during the day.
Since 2004 when things really started to happen, I have followed their guidance and surrendered to a path that I feel has been mapped out, step by step, by these Light-guides. I trust them completely and my business, Mellulah, would not exist or have had the success it has, had I not listened and followed the journey they have led me on, and done what I was told to do, over and over again to bring me to here, today.
Channeling and receiving messages has become so natural now I rarely think about it as being more than just part of life, but I realise it is very special and I do feel very honoured to have this connection. Sometimes I am just given advice or guidance for my own personal life or where to take steps or move away from things in my work. But often the communication is much more about all humanity, the energy coming in, the vibration that is changing in some way.
Also I am told what is needed in a yoga class or on a retreat, what to say during a meditation, most of my work is not pre-planned, and if I do plan it, that often goes out the window when you all arrive and I am given guidance of what is needed at that time.
So I am beginning to share more openly now and have been putting my recent channeled messages online via social media and youtube the past few weeks, the response from you all has been so lovely, to know it is really helping you is beautiful. I also started the healing group to send distant healing which I am delighted to know is helping many of you at this time.
Meeting my spirit guides
I first felt introduced personally to my Lightbeings in 2006 when I was living in a beautiful, quiet, tucked away place called Happy Bottom in Dorset. My children were still very young and I had cut myself off from the past and found a little cottage in the woods to retreat and spend some time being a hermit for a few years after divorce and a hard time.
They first called themselves the ‘Earth Priests’,there were three of them and this led me into exploring some of the ancient Earth based traditions like Paganism, Druidism and I loved reading and educating myself on the traditions we had in England many years ago. Much of this was so connected to yoga and Eastern traditions but just lost along the way, particularly by the Inquisition that annihilated these beautiful rituals and ceremonies from society and from our history books.
In 2008, I took an amazing trip to Arizona in the US and visited a number of ancient Navajo sites. It was during a guided tour at Palatki, that I managed to find a few moments in an ancient cave by myself, slipping away from the group. There I began to see incredible lights, filling the space with white light and spiralling silhouettes of figures began to appear. Here I met the Earth Priests I’d been communing with for the past 2 years, they gave me their names, Erinkudo, Erinyama and Donashtiyamo.
Since then I have met many spirit guides, you will too. We are sent different guides for certain periods in our lives, for me the Lightbeings who have stayed close, are there to help me with my work. They help me to tune into people to help them heal, they show me the next step but never the whole picture. I am guessing as much as anyone, I don’t know exactly how things will work out, I have to trust implicitly that if I leap, I will land, eventually.
Its an adventure! An adventure that I am grateful for everyday.
Watch the latest Full moon healing meditation on my Facebook page
Healing Meditations and Guidance
Please take a look at my Healing Light Meditations and Guidance videos on Youtube. I hope you enjoy my healing meditations and feel the benefit of them, you can ‘subscribe’ to my youtube channel, its completely free, and by subscribing you will be notified when I add a new video and be the first to see it. Do also feel free share the video healing meditations with anyone who you feel would benefit.
- Pure Light Healing Meditation for the Lunar Eclipse June 2020
- A Channeled Message and Mediation for Covid-19
- Help your Angels heal by using Positive Intention
I also send healing everyday to anyone who wishes to receive, this is completely free and all you have to do is join the Facebook Group below. I regularly offer ‘live’ guided mediations on social media that you can join, so follow me on all the apps you use and you’ll be notified when I am doing the next healing share.
You can also book in a 1-2-1 remote healing session with me anytime. Find out more and book your angelic healing online.
Next Live & Free Light Healing Meditation on Facebook – Daily at 5pm during lockdown!
Its been beautiful to share Angelic Light Distant Healing Meditations with you here on Facebook regularly over the past 8 months and during lockdown I plan to offer Healing Meditations every day.
I will send healing and it will be received by you wherever you are, the session will be available to watch anytime and the healing intention will reach you whenever you watch.
Feel free to join my Healing Group the Angelic Light Daily Distant Healing group, your name is then added to my healing list. But joining me for these healing meditations will mean the healing will reach you.
Feel free to get in touch to request specific healing or to ask for it to reach friends and family.
The meditation will involve a short relaxation and pranayama breath work and then you can sit or lie and receive the healing vibes. I will also sometimes play my Crystal Singing bowls too.
Please make sure you like and follow my Mellulah Therapy & Yoga Retreats page to be notified when I go live each day
I hope you enjoy, please share with friends xxx
Recent Channeled Messages
June 4th 2020
“I received a message this morning that the Light coming into our planet at the moment is more powerful than anything we’ve felt before, no human being on Earth will have felt it like this in their lives.
It is so strong it is literally burning into us, you might feel sensations in your body, particularly during meditation or the moments drifting into sleep.
It’s likely you’ll experience something like pushing, maybe around your temples, cheeks or upper chest. This is the Light energy reaching into you for deep healing, activating and awakening parts of you and easing long term suffering. This isn’t an overnight process and might just be the beginning of transformation for us.
They told me the Light energy coming to us now is stronger than any love a human can feel, stronger than any healer has shared, it is pure, celestial energy that is able to reach us now as never before.
If you find this process uncomfortable, breathe deeply, create an inner smile to banish fear, do yoga, eat well and rest and if you are troubled by what you feel, reach out to me and share”
Contact me to find out more and share Love Saira xx
A year ago today, I gave up alcohol completely and what an amazing year its been. I hadn’t considered that giving up alcohol would give me such a range of benefits other than just feeling better after a few glasses of wine on a Sunday morning. Its been really interesting to look back and see what I’ve actually done with myself this year, to see how much more positive it has been, in so many ways.
My relationship with wine had come to an unhealthy end and it took me a couple of years, attempting ‘mindful drinking’, ‘moderate drinking’ all of which felt as controlling and annoying as a calorie controlled or weight watchers style, restrictive diet. Or like having a relationship with someone who you know isn’t good for you, but you keep trying to make it fit. The facts were obvious, alcohol was not doing me any good and rather than trying to fit this toxic stuff into my life so I could fit into the social norm, I made the choice to get out.
Liberation came when I read Annie Graces book ‘This Naked Mind’, a fascinating study into the effects of alcohol on the brain and a very real look at how conditioned we are into believing alcohol needs to be a part of everyday life in our culture.
Armed with this knowledge and a strong desire to wake up everyday feeling energised, I announced to myself and the world that was it, for good. Some considered this a brave move, some over the top and some questioned why I was making such a big deal about it, some still do. I am making a big deal about it again today! Because its a big deal!
For many of you too it seems, I have had so many clients and friends tell me, my story inspired them to do the same and give up, I think thats amazingly positive, the collective consciousness is rising and we are becoming more aware of how alcohol has lied to us for too long, its time to take back our own power and push away what keeps us down and keeps us small.
My own life in the past twelve months has exploded into creative successes and adventures I had only dreamed of. I thought I had suffered with anxiety my whole life, but now I wonder if it was alcohol that made me anxious all along, I have never felt more balanced. Something was always blocking me from really achieving my goals, fears were always keeping me just below full throttle. It is still hard to describe what has happened, but its like a switch has been flicked and rather than my ideas and dreams bubbling just below the surface, never being allowed to be fully realised because of fears and doubts, they have literally exploded.
I’ve pressed the ‘book now’ button on travelling dreams I’ve had for decades. What made this suddenly seem possible? Nothing else has changed but being sober. I planned and booked a family trip to Thailand for six of us that we took back in June, I’m currently away running a yoga retreat in Morocco and after years of dithering, booked a trip for my husband and I to India coming up in a few months time, its like I’m having my gap year, just 30 years late!
Work has always been a passion but its changed, I’m fully booked, all the time! The therapy diary is solid, often weeks in advance, the yoga classes are packed out and retreats are selling out over and over again, I have some money in my bank account for the first time in my whole life! My relationship has balanced out and I’m lucky that my husband isn’t a big drinker, but we never argue about politics anymore, hm perhaps that was me getting bulshy after the red wine got into my veins! And I still have fun on nights out, I definitely laugh more and feel more free to be myself when I walk into a room of strangers at a party or supper night. Alcohol lied to me for years telling me I needed it to be ok, I am ok, I am more than ok.
What has changed but being sober? I feel richer and fuller with more to give, my energy is balanced, my moods more stable, my anxiety non-existent and my belief and love for myself are complete in a way that I never knew was possible before.
I will never judge anyone who drinks and I wish that people wouldn’t feel judged by my not drinking, my giving up alcohol is about me and not about anyone else. Not everyone struggles with life sometimes the way I did, or feels that alcohol is detrimental to them in anyway and thats fine. But if you are even the slightest bit concerned that the booze is lying to you, that it isn’t helping you unwind or relax, that it isn’t fun or indeed a necessary part of having fun, that the craving for a glass of wine isn’t healthy and that we have all been told a very big fat lie our whole lives, that fits a social conditioning that needs rebelling against, maybe its time to make the leap into soberista life.
Enjoy, Saira xx
How a simple practice can transform our lives.
Loving kindness is an act that brings joy and pleasure both to the receiver and the giver, it has a double effect. We all know how good it feels to see the eyes of a child, lover or friend light up when we give them a special, thoughtful gift or make an effort to do something to help them. We also know how good it feels in our own hearts to know we showed love and kindness to someone we care about. It works on strangers too, it feels good to buy from a Big Issue seller in town or help an overloaded mother with her pram, an elderly person cross the road. The more we practice kindness the better we feel and we are doing a service too, helping bring a little light and love into the world everywhere we go.
Taking this simple act a step further and looking at the Buddhist practice of Loving Kindness, helps us to deeply heal and release suffering from our present and our past.
This spiritual practice isn’t just about material giving and receiving, it is about feeling loving kindness to all living beings no matter what. This isn’t always easy and in our society we are conditioned to feel that we should hold on to grudges, to be unforgiving to those who have hurt us and to build a wall around our hearts to prevent future hurt or suffering. Deep inside us there is a wisdom that is calling us to let go and find love, forgiveness, compassion and kindness and that by doing so we will be released from our pain.
Here is a meditation on Loving Kindness that you can do quietly with yourself to help to clear your heart of old burdens, unleash love and bring a smile to your face:
- Find a quiet place to sit, make sure you won’t be disturbed for at least 10-15 minutes. Repeat each line of the meditation out loud or mentally to yourself, the first time say the words using ‘I’ directed towards yourself and each subsequent time use ‘you’.
- Second time think of someone you like and respect a great deal.
- Third time think of someone you feel fairly neutral about.
- Forth time think of someone who really irritates you.
- Fifth time someone who has really hurt you either recently or in the past.
- Finally think of your village, your country and then the whole world and all who live in it, particularly those in cultures that we do not know or understand.
- May I/you be well, healthy and strong
- May I/you be happy
- May I/you abide in peace
- May I/you feel safe and secure
- May I/you feel loved and cared for
If you find it difficult to say these words whilst thinking of someone who has deeply hurt you, just make a resolve to try again another time in the future and leave it there.
Enjoy this meditation and bringing the practice of Loving Kindness into your life.